It does not ends tonight.

title: Fully booked .
date: Thursday, October 29, 2009
time:4:45 PM

Schedule for 1st Week of November .

Monday/2nd " : Work at morning shift + Dance Practice at night .

Tuesday/3rd " : Work at night shift .

Wednesday/4th " : Dance Practice at 5pm .

Thursday/5th " : Work at night shift .

Friday/6th " : Work at morning shift + Dance Practice at 6pm .

Saturday/7th " : Work at morning shift + Dance Practice at night .

Sunday/8th " : Work at night shift .

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BUSY lah sangat .

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Later on i will be working morning shift . And Im going to look forward for today ! Meetin' dearest Hero after work bebeh ~ At last ehhhh ., weeks have gone and now he wants to meet me *smiles* Alright people ., I have to go have some rest (:

Goodbye .

Labels: cao-cin-cau .

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title: Alive .
date: Tuesday, October 27, 2009
time:11:17 PM

An hour had past . I just got back from work .. Lately I found myself in pain . Everytime I in the kitchen ... I always took my time as I just feel my wrist damn hurt like fuck . I don't know if i should visit the doctor . I scared it might waste time and as well money . Maybe I just let it be for awhile unless I seriously can't take the pain . Oh God!~

Make me more stronger.

Make me more lively .

I am going to work almost everyday during November . I don't wanna be lazy . I want to be very hard-working . I wanna earn myself . I wanna help my mummy . I wanna help my daddy . I wanna make my life more easier without giving problems . I just wanna be Miss Independent .

Yes ! Miss Independent (:

Labels: Work is all im looking for .

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title: Muhammad Firdaus Zainudin.,
date:
time:3:09 PM

Last night was well spent with him . It was Marvelous ! Throughout the whole night with him despite our first time meet up .. He managed to cheer me up for that day . He was a stranger to me ., totally a stranger . But I now I want to regard him as my friend (:

Before I met him , I met Haiqal sachok at Cathay . We went to watched movie called " The Sister Keeper " . Haiqal sachok treat me . So good uh him .. Haha~ This was our first time went out together and his first time treating me . Maybe next time I should repay him back . Insyallah !., I can't promise . Hehe :D

Let's get back bought that guy . *winks* Ok I met him at Plaza Singapura . As a gentleman lah kans ., Fie treat me lunch . Found a place to eat and chit-chat to know each other . After lunch we planned to go Clarke Quay by walking through Fort Canning . It was my first time went to Fort Canning and I really want to go back there to take pictures of myself . Hehe . Oh well you know Nazy *keningnaiknaik* ..

We walked from Plaza Singapura to Fort Canning - to Clarke Quay - to Esplanade . It was superb ! We saved money buy not travelling by public transport . Thank God I gave trust on him to lead the way . Haha ~ He wasn't that confident at first but after awhile he was right . We managed to go places that we planned to go . Alhamdullilah (:

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And I want to take the opportunity to say Thank You Firdaus ! :D
I know he would be reading this ... HAHAHA!

Fie ., Thank You for everything . Those nights was truely amazing . You make my day . You make my night . Just hours with you much less there's no regrets . We were as if know each other for so long but actually it was our first time met . You brought me to places that I've not been before and I shall keep it as memories . I appreciate for what you have done . Those jokes , stories , everything lah ... I wish I could spent another time with you~ In a short time , I know about you and your backgorunds . Remember what I said that night ok? Try stop your habits and think about your life .

Once again , THANK YOU !

Labels: You were my star that night .

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title: baby im here .
date: Monday, October 19, 2009
time:3:51 PM

Hello everyone! *giggles* Sorry for not updating that often . Everytime I wanna update .. I will always end up doing something else . Haha! That makes me stop updating for the moment (: I just can't sit still and continue blogging . Seriously right now i feel like dancing while blogging which i know it's impossible . Hah .

Anyways . right now . I've got a job and been busy with working lately . It's already my 3rd day and tommorow would be my 4th day working day . For me , as a new worker over there , I am extremly tired but not that tired . And i love to work there as i met a few new friends especially Girls! that' s what im looking for because i want to make more girlfriends then boyfriends =D The girls over there were friendly . Especially Jessica and this malay girl . I forget her name . Heh . Other than that , i have fun working there (:

And lately daddy and mummy has been treating me nice after since i've started working . Yeah . They always asked me how is my day at work and when Im working again . I love them ok? .

Im trying to make my life simple as possible . Not being in relationship and not wasting time and not hurting myself by someone . Exactly! I love myself and treasure people around me . Right now i am not with anyone nor im intrested in anyone . I find it just a waste of time . I would follow the flow and hoping everything is gonna be alright (: That's what I want and hoping for . ♥

Labels: Take it easy baby .

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title: covered with smile .
date: Tuesday, October 13, 2009
time:9:12 PM

After all , I still got the chance to meet my lovely irritating nonsense Girlfriends .
Gosh . It's been days since i last met them . And i really miss them badly .
Supposingly , I planned to attend school just now but end up I "jiwa" my Mr. Sunshine . Haha . I woke up at 10am just now = not attending to school . Mr. Sunshine lahh .. called me at 4am just to tell me that he misplace his Ex-link . Oh how cute~! haha . I only get to sleep for a few hours that's why i overslept . And i realised my eyebags are getting heavier . Can see my panda eyes already !!!!!!! *screams* Seriously , i've been sleeping late and have not gotten enough of sleep . I should have a nice sleep starting from now . Tommorow im gonna start working as ..... (insertyourself) . =P Only my girls and Mr. Sunshine knows . Hurhur . Can't wait to start working but im kind of nervous . heh~ Suzanna will start working next week . And Nisa darling will start working next 2 weeks . All gonna be busy with their own works . Annd im gonna miss them FORKING a LOOOOTTXXXXXX! :(
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Labels: my love for them is strong .

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title: this feelings wouldn't fade away .
date:
time:12:14 AM

Why God?

I wasn't able to express my feelings .
Each time i fall there's always someone to catch me .
But not anymore .

I feel so weak .
I feel so down .
I couldn't speak .
Nor could I express this rotten feelings .

I shouldn't go on this way .
I may hurt them .
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Aidil asked me to read his blog and i found this ,

Here's a big shoutout to a friend who recently seems to be not herself and very depressed.
This might be a really hard time for you be whatever the problem is, show strength and you shall conquer, show weakness you'll only crumble further. Try and stay positive no matter how hard it is, if you've a problem in i'm here to listen cause i know how it feels to keep everything inside. it sucks. Like i said, don't burden the whole weight onto your heart, it might just collapse one day and hurt you more. Cry if you want but cry only once, make it the best ;) and a little quote to you that i've seen many times.
"What doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger."
stay strong my dear ;)

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Im sorry i just need time to be sometime alone .

Labels: crying on my own shoulder .

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title: You're my Sunshine .
date: Monday, October 12, 2009
time:11:41 PM

I couldn't speak out the word YOU when you asked me who is
Mr. Sunshine .
I wanna you to find out yourself .
It's obviously shown and I believe you know who you are right now .

I'm sorry dear i could not speak out .
It's hard .

Mr. Sunshine , thanks for your splendid time .

Hold me again .
Hug me again .

Love me not leave me baby .

^^

A son of H^ .
By the name of _______ .

Labels: i wanted you .

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title: Wonderful night with flying kites .
date:
time:1:05 PM

Awesome day with Mr. Sunshine (:
I thought the date was cancelled as he wasn't feeling well .
But with his effortness , he turned up and meet me at Mrt .*awwww.*

Supposingly , I wanna catch a show at Esplanade but end up when we came the show already ended . *sighs* Then we sat for awhile . Took some pictures . And when the time was ticking , i told Mr. Sunshine that I wanna watch this show next week and he agreed . But i forget that im gonna start wokring this week . So , i have to check my schedule ...

*fast forward*

Since we both find it boring if we stayed at Esplanade all the way till night . I brought Mr. Sunshine to Marina Barrage . I have not been there before nor him . So , I told him let's explore ourselves since the both of us never been there before . It took us sometime to find the bus-stop . Alhamdullilah , Mr. Sunshine is quite good at looking the directions . Unlike me , sucks at it cause at first we went to the wrong direction . Haha! My bad . Im sorry Mr. Sunshine . Heh~

We spent our time sharing stories and taking a few photos . Few hours were spent appropriately without misused it . I really had my time well spent with him . And within that time i know something bout Mr. Sunshine XD But i know there is lots of things that i should know about him . Shall not rush . I know .

When time strikes 9 i think . We head down to Bugis for ...... fun! haha . Nowhere to go actually . So we went Bugis bought Mac and sat down like again =.= hurhur . Ok one thing that I don't know that makes me superbly shocked is that He smoke? Gosh. The face "forking" decent . Really . But the funny thing is that .. He was scared to smoke when im around . haha .

Mr. Sunshine : Your forehead like got sign saying " No Smoking " ...

Haha . Actually , to be honest i hate people to smoke when they're with me . But i know i can't stop them so i just have to let them cause i don't want to make them hate me . I understand the reason why he smoke .

As a friend , i have right to help him to reduced smoking . So i told him , try to smoke 5 ciggarettes/per day . And decreased it slowly . I know it's hard for smokers to reduced their smoking habits . Mr. Sunshine , dont' worry . When im still around , I will try to help you reduced and avoid from smoking . Insyallah , one day you will be smoke-free! :D

To end our day , he accompany me back home .
Thank you Mr. Sunshine !
xoxoxoxo

a picture to represent him .
He was the one whom drew this .

Labels: Shall we fly a kite together?

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title: Love?
date: Wednesday, October 7, 2009
time:1:24 AM

Shall we talk about love today?

It's going to be a month im being single . Life as a single person right now is extremly enjoying . After 7 months being in someone's hand/property .. i felt myself free like a butterfly . Seriously , im happy with whatever i have right now . My friends were always there for me especially my dearly darlings . I share my stories with them , i share my laughter with them . You know sometimes i rather love animals then human beings ...

Besides that , i think i've fallen for someone but .. im totally not yet prepared . Though i know him for quite soemtimes .. i still have long way to go . He isn't like all my previous ex whom i know . There's a unique thing in him (:

Love isn't easy as what i expected . After i broke up with that _______.. I have no trust on guys except my hero of course . It's fucking hard for me to love another someone and understand them . Right now, they don't even know i am admiring them from far . I did not show them my love like how i used whenever i admire someone .

Now it's different . I always admire them from far . I always back out whenever i found out they in contact with someone . I just don't want to destroy their relationship . Easily say , i started to give out to other people easily and just move and and go with the flow ... May Allah bless with someone that suits me and willing to sacrifice his life time XD

Boy, i hope i could get to know you more and may God let me give a chance to love you and be with you .

Labels: takes time though time is precious .

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title: Life is harder as what i expected .
date: Monday, October 5, 2009
time:8:57 PM

It's been 2 days i spent my day in the library . But i still not prepared for N'level examinations ... And today is Combine Humanities . I found physics manageable though i used to hate that subjects last time . But chemistry? Damn fcuking hate the subject right now . I seriously feel dissapointed for not studying chemistry that much . *sigghhhs* I wonder why studies are getting harder .. Even the primary school kids start using calculator . Last time we used Abacus and now they used Calculator ! Uprageded ! haha . Seriously , life is getting harder and kids are getting smarter . Insyallah , hopefully i Strive for Sucess in the future . I want to make my life a memoriable life and make my parents happy . XD

I will take this opportunity to Thanks both my dearly parents whom always understand me and my siblings . Without them i won't exist in this world . And so far , everything is alright at home . Father has been forever busy with his work . *sighss* I miss him and his jokes . Seriously i miss the past where by my family members will go dinner every weekends . I wished those times could repeat once again . Ohbaby~

and , i need my hero badly !
baby where are you?

Labels: meanwhile.

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title: Darling , i love you !
date: Saturday, October 3, 2009
time:1:45 AM

At last i met up with this Bitch . Fcuking miss her alot .
We both met up at Library and did some revision .
I am happy to see her and spend time with her .
She's my Drug , y'know !
Without her im dead . seriously .

Ok im waiting a friend of mine to call and i'm off to bed .
Goodnight ! (:

Labels: exhausted .

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